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Tuesday, August 31, 2010 @ 6:09 AM
 I went out w this awesome bunch of people. Plus minus some people luh
There was cangy pinrong pearl boon fiz asrul and lih wei!
WE DID TAKE PICTURES.
but its w hafiz and asrul!
We didnt do like super amazing super fun things
We just went to amanda's hse and sleep plus talk plus take pictures/
But it was fun, i enjoyed myself.
& i reaaaaally miss them.
ITS ALRIGHT, ILL SEE THEM REAAAAAAAAL SOOOON!
LOVE YOU PEOPLE. I MEAN IT.
 BTW. I finished this book tdy.
It is a nice book, very nice. Out of my normal vampire-werewolves genre. But its nice/
Even tho it was romance, it isnt like filled with sex and tht kind of stuff.
It was just genuine love, simple and really pure.
& there were alot of parts where i reread and reread. Cause, they were sweet and yah, make me think, in a good way.
"It wasn't that long, and it certainly wasn't the kind of kiss you see in movies these days, but it was wonderful in its own way, and all i can remember about the moment is that when our lips first touched, i knew the memory would last forever."
This is like only one of the super nice parts. It will take forever for me to type them all down. But i guess, to really understand the meaning behind the story, you have to read the book. Srsly, go read it. In a way i think after reading the book, my perception of everything changed.
Yes tho i began to doubt. Doubt everything i'd been through. I wonder if any part was truely true. Because every part of it seemed as wonderful as that described in the story. I guess deep in, all i really want, is for that part to at least be real. Or maybe its just that i couldnt accept it if any of it was fake. But if it was true, how did things get to the way they are now? I srsly dont knw. & i wish i had an answer. Not just to this, but to everything esle. Idk, just the answer might not change anything, but maybe ill feel better if i knew the reason/s behind it. Or maybe, im thinking too much again, there might not be any reasons. Of course, it made me realise, okay, realise might be the wrong word (I sort of knew this all along), maybe this was the better path to take. & if the better path hurts so much, i cant imagine hw much worse the worse one could be. I dont dare to proclaim that i no longer have any feelings. I guess its just that i dont dare to. One thing for sure, its fading. I dont even knw if i want it to go away quick or not. Somehow yes, somehow no. Another thing im certain of is that, there can be no future whatever it is. I cant trust as much and also, it was too awful an experience i dont think i can go thru any of it again. True, the happy part was sweet and memorable. But whether its worth all these pain, i really do not know. At least, im on my way now. & i reaaaaaally hope i dont make any wrong choices from here onwards.
 So true right. At least, in my scenario, the other party isnt sick and dying. Compared to that, i'd rather this.
 IM SORRRY GAGA!
I didnt mean to be psk today!
seriously! Im sorrrry!
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